Becoming a Writer

Monday, September 29th, 2025

There are a lot of things I have wanted to do since I started becoming a writer. I wanted to do so many things. I wanted to put my writings out there. I was inspired by so many other writers to do more than write books. I wanted to do something with all these entires.

The first thing I wanted to do, as I have mentioned many times now, that I wanted to make videos from some of these entries. I bought a microphone and got a subscription to an editing software. But when I played back that first-half of the first sentence, I pissed myself off. My own voice. The voice I hear everyday. But when I heard it being played back, I couldn’t stand to hear it. So went used an AI voice. Hearing my writing being said through a different voice was more than bearable. I gave up on that.

The second thing I wanted to do is turn some of these entries into poems. My 12th grade English teacher had us do poems for a month. Mines was awful compared to literally everyone else, but it was fun. And it was my first inspiration for wanting to do poems. My second was this girl on TikTok named, Celia. I would binge watch her poems every now and then. She’s my main inspiration for wanting to make poems. However, when I had to change so much about my writing style. I gave up. It felt comfortable for a while, but after a while, it felt wrong. Like I was forcing my brain to have the capacitive to learn a new, complicated, skill. Even when I took a break, I still couldn’t get back to it.

The final thing was creating a website. The chances of me getting traffic was impossible, but I didn’t care. I want to post my entries and photo’s with someone. To make it look more, creative. My main, and only, inspiration for this was a girl named Wiishu. I would read almost everyone blog she made on her website. At the time I didn’t wasn’t saving my money properly to maintain a domain for as long as possible. So I set it aside.

I still want to do the first and third thing, but I don’t know how to manage my time to make them. To make the videos and the blogs. I have the name and general theme, but the final part of what I need to do is experimenting. I actually have to do what to make something I’ll make. Nowadays, I’m pushing it off for a book I’m burning out on. I’m trying to stay on top of it. I’m trying to finish each draft I do within the year I started the first. Even though there I have a second goal that counteracts it. To have a published book by either 30-35. Meaning I have about five to ten years until then.

I already have a list of all the entries that I want to put into the blogs and videos. I just need to find a time to do it all. I’m making the website today. Since I’m not going to school anymore, I want to do something more than writing books and taking pictures. As far as the YouTube videos go, I don’t know when I want to start on those. But maybe later rather than sooner.

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