2026

Thursday, January 1st, 2026

The main thing we hear about when going into the new year are resolutions. Making goals for ourselves just for some of us to double back on it, or not even start on it. For over a decade I haven’t made a single new year’s resolution. Until this year. This year I will accomplish at least on of my goals. One of them being the generic learning a new language. I don’t know what it is that makes me want to learn French so much. For now all I have is Duolingo, and I have been on and off again for the most part. I would last three weeks then pick it back up a month and a half later.

Another goal of mine that is pretty out there is getting my first book published this year, even though I’m not expecting myself to finish it until 2030. I remember when I first started writing, I looked up the average age for authors to publish their first book. It said many first time authors that publish their first novels are in their 30s to 40s. Which took away my sense of urgency to get it done as soon as possible.

There are also some minor resolutions that I intend on doing this year. Like getting a car, my own place, and picking up golfing again. Another generic resolution is exercise, which I get a lot of that at my job. When it comes to swimming and golfing(being the only sports I have actually played growing up), swimming is nice to do, but golfing gets me more outside than swimming, plus I don’t have to wait for anyone to start. And even though I mainly sit on my ass all day, I do really like walking.

Unless I am on a writing sprint and it continues until the following day, all I do is sit on my ass and watch YouTube videos or a random movie. The only time I am actually productive at home is when I am doing chores. For the last two years now I have been trying to do many different things to try and get out of the house. Especially with how close I live to downtown. There are a lot of cafés and gyms, and a movie theater about an hour walk away from me. But now I am about to make a financial decision.

When I first went job hunting, I always tried searching for a job where I am consistent moving. I didn’t have the stamina to sit at a desk for 8 hours a day. But I guess the amount of physical labor that is required for my job —and current position, sitting at a desk doesn’t sound too bad. And given how long I’ve been writing now, my stamina for sitting at a computer went from 30 minutes to 6 hours. Mostly thanks to the Pomodoro technique. Which is perfect timing since my new position will be having me on the computer most of the day than my current position. However there is still the problem of sitting at home on my off days, not doing wanting to do something while also doing nothing. I’ve noticed that I get more work done when I am not at home.

So I did some research and it turns out I can rent or lease a dedicate desk or office. It’ll cost about $325/month, but the amenities are worth it. As I mentioned earlier I am getting a new job position by the end of the month. Meaning I will be going from first shift to third shift. And this member ship will allow me to access this office at any point in time. The only problem is that I doubt I’d be the only person to apply for it. So hopefully it will be available by my next pay check. The reason I’m not grabbing it now is because I just bought two refurbished iMacs and a pair of Raycon headphones for $1400. It would have been less but I wanted it by this Monday instead the Friday after next. So the shipping fee was expensive. Which is one of the main reasons I’m glad my roommates have decided to renew the lease for another year. Meaning I will be able to afford a lot more than usual.

So far there is only one thing I can check off of my New Year’s resolution. Today I launched my website. I’m honestly excited about the many things I have planned for it. Even though until I can get most of those things done, it will just be a waste of time and money. But I don’t intend on giving up quite yet. Plus there are a lot of extra project I want to include. A lot of thought goes into these entries. Sometimes a little too much. I’m always thinking about formatting, how to start it off, how long to make it, what to say and not to say. But the most important one is what should I write about next.

When I first decided to go back to college to become a writer, I wanted to go into journalism in case being an author didn’t take off as well as I hoped. Stuff like this is completely random and I have read stories about people taking such ridiculous risks for their passion. Risks that will ensure they won’t be able to bounce back from if things go south, or slower than they originally expected. So I wanted to take up journalism as a back up plan. A way to continue my passion for writing if becoming an author doesn’t work. There is still a part of me that still wants to make write reviews. So one by one, I’ll be making review on books, movies, and –if everything goes smoothly, games.

As I mentioned before I watch a lot of Youtube. I came across an animator by the name, Dead Sound. He’s an amazing animator and storyteller. I do recommend watching him, especially if you are into dinosaurs. In any case, the one thing that stuck out about him is that after he uploads his animated video, he then uploads the making of the video. Like what his thought process was throughout making it. Where, how, and what his inspirations for his stories came from. It seemed so cool that I wanted to do the same with my books. So when I finish each book will start making a series called “The Making of…” and explain the process of what all happened during the making of that novel. I honestly can’t wait to start.

With a perfect and unintentional transition, another thing I would like to do for my book is making Youtube videos of me reading off these entries. At first I wanted to use my own voice for it, but hearing my own voice repeated back to me only pissed me off, so I used Text-to-Speech instead. I got pretty far, but I gave up the project wanting to do more for it. Then I just never picked it back up. I do intend on making the videos once again, but this time, I intend on pushing through my self-hatred and upload the recordings with face cam footage of me recording. I’ve already put my face out on the internet since my first TikTok account –that I regret abandoning. So I figure why not include my face as well. Improving on my editing skills. At this point all I need is a microphone for to plug into my phone. I have a tripod with a bluetooth button that I can use to control the camera. But instead of staring longingly at the camera and rehearsing the entry like a live-action actor. I’m just going to record myself reading each entry.

Another thing I want to do is revive an old passion of mine. Drawing. It’s not a burning passion of mine, mostly because of the memories and feelings I have. The only satisfaction I would get from drawing was finishing it, even then it wouldn’t be enough for me to accomplish that feeling once I started. The process of drawing for me was irksome to say the least. Nothing was perfect when I wanted everything to be perfect. I tried reminding myself that it didn’t have to be perfect but even those words pissed me off even more to the point where I would give up entirely. I couldn’t even label my art as “it has potential,” I would get so frustrated.

It honestly feels weird writing some of these entries in the Diarium app just to immediately post it on the website. Not all of them will be posted since they’re too specific. But the ones where I’m just ranting on, like this one, will definitely be posted. I’m genuinely excited for the future ahead. It’s an alien feeling, and makes me want to abandon the whole project and just be a machine who only knows how to work until it forces a shut down.

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