A Letter To My Enemy

Tuesday, January 10th, 2023

Dear enemy,

I hate you. I hate everything about you.

Everyday is a constant battle with you, and you treat it like a game.

It's because of you that I'm the asshole to everyone. I have to keep my distance from everyone so they don’t hate me. So they know they can trust me. So they aren’t disgusted by me. I want people to not regret meeting me and you always mess it up.

I would ask you to reveal your true colors to everyone, so I can finally have a reason to be free of you, so that I, and everyone else, can leave you to rot. but it will just hurt everyone. I would do it myself, but you’re such a fucking nightmare that I would have to rot with you. Once that happens everyone will leave me, and I'll be stuck with you. But at least then, this fight will be between you and I as it always should be. But you it must kill you from the inside to not allow people to get involved so they can also suffer. To make people feel pity for you. You’re just another narcissistic attention-seeker.

I'm just tired. Tired of you. And everything you do. Everything you are. Why can't you just stop with all of this? You are the reasoning for everything wrong in my life. Every physical injury I give you, it just means more mental suffering for me.

I want to lose this fight so I no longer have to look at you in the mirror.

I hate that I am afraid of you.

I hate that I can never trust you.

I hate that you fuck up my life in every way possible.

I hate the sorrow and suffering you cause everyone.

I hate how uncomfortable you make everyone feel.

I hate you, and I just wish you would die.

From,

Myself.

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